The past few weeks my family and many others in our church have entered into a time of fasting and prayer. I even had the privilege of writing a passage in our 21 day devotional for our church. In this time I’ve been taking advantage of looking at my phone less and looking to The Lord more. In doing this I’ve realized a few things.
1. I stare at my phone too much looking at nothing and waiting to be filled. I’ve intentionally deleted all my social media apps for the time being and still find myself searching…for what?
2. Take time out for what’s important. Yesterday I took the kids to the zoo with a dear friend and her child. Instead of taking a ton of photos for online, I looked at the wonder on Isaacs face as he looked at the flamingos and chimpanzees. My heart broke as Luke lost his favorite dinosaur (thanks to Amazon I told him his Dino was on vacation and will be back Tuesday) and Hope quietly enjoyed being carried in the cool air. It was actually my first time taking all three out to eat and an event by myself. I’ve spent so much time intimidated by parenting I’ve missed out on the fun parts at times.
3. Give some grace (including yourself). I know this is a shocker but having three kids in a two bedroom can be difficult. I spend more time feeling guilty for not doing enough as opposed to praying and being thankful for what we have been given. I also need to give myself grace and remember that my competence comes from God. He’s gifted me with these three children and there is a reason I am their mom.
4. Simplify. During this time I’ve gotten rid of about 80% of my kids clothes. They were blessed with so much for Christmas that I didn’t want to just keep gaining more stuff but get rid of things too. Plus side is- new clothes and less laundry. I still have a lot to do but I want to be responsible for what I’ve been given.
5. Worry less, pray more. Maybe you don’t attest to my faith in God. That’s fine. But l ask you this- do you spend time worrying about tomorrow and missing out on today? Am I hungry for something more than silly social media can give me? If I look down from my phone to see the eyes of my baby looking back at me, my priorities are in the wrong place.
I say all of this to say- I’m just plain thankful. For everything. The joys of the holidays even down to the currently sniffling noses of my kids. I want to enjoy all of it and not get in my own way with fears of guilt any longer. I want the freedom that only comes from The Lord and having a relationship with Him.